29th july 2009 i love you :)
finally he replied my text.so happy for that.yeay
i've been waiting since idk when for you to reply my 3 words text.haha
well i know you'r busy i understand okay i wont bother you
just let me know that you'r mine always okay?
i love you i miss you.

currently enjoying :
a) i wanna-the all american rejects
b) everything we had-the academy is
c) knock you down-keri hilson
d) push it-enrique

currently loving :
a) mum and dad
b) fzoe and yoyot
c) agen
d) friends
e) kitty :)
f) crushing someone but will be suprise with empty results okay i get it :)

currently hating :
a) nothing just ingga.

currently in the mood for :
a) cakes
b) secret recipes
c) shopping
d) pinks!
e) chatting with that person whom im crushing at the moment :)

currently worrying about :
a) exam
b) exam
c) exam

everything has it answer now very relief :)
he is now no more and for some reason i feel so happy for that :D
idk whats on my mind at the moment.
well whatever,i like it.

a) happy sad idk
b) awkward much yes at school
c) random people yes uh uh whatever.
d) in love with no one i noe rite? haha :D
e) ily agen for being by my side at time when i really need a shoulders.
f) am fed up of people around me
g) family relations getting better alhamdulillah
h) meeting my big sister soon i cant wait i miss her so much
i ) looking forward to be in a relationship soon :P but no participants yet so okay just beat it :D

dinner is finally over.what a relief :)
suddenly i feel some kind of lubang at my heart,it hurts
for no reason my mind keep saying there's no reason to stay alive.
feel empty.dush dush.haha

the only thing that can bring joy to my heart is the cake
it was yummy nak mampus i like it :)
thanks ashraf.ily buddy.
hehe

things im into at the moment :

*glosses *eyeliner *perfumes *handbags *dresses *heels *mango *topshop *charles and keith *zara *forever 21 *vincci *cheese cake *watermelon juice *tom yum *SEPET PERSON THAT I ADORE *night outing *mcd *kfc *coffee bean *starbucks *roxy *free foods *makeup *handphone *laptop *songs *dance-a-long comp. *looking pretty *the girls *the boys *friends *school *saying ly much more to mr sepet *texting mr sepet *spending time with mr sepet
anything miss out sorry lah :P

i dislike at the moment :
*cikgu y***** *left out *being alone *backstabber *hyphocrite *complicated stuffs *without money *broke *my curled hair *my allergies *my diarrhea *keep forgetting stuffs *annoying people MYOB *not texting mr sepet *missing mr sepet (miss him so much it hurts ): ) *fridge without interesting food *mummy and daddy left me alone here at kuching ): *missing yoyot *fzo keeps on asking money -_-' get ur own person.haha anything left out sorry lah :P

i love agen ): trying to protect her from being hurt.but i guess she's alone in her relationship matters ha? i'll learn to let her go and stop being overprotected.haha i'll help her but for now i guess i can only listen and give her my shoulder.

agen,everything will be fine okay syg?anything u can talk to me.i know i may look like i dont care but i really do care, just that i dont wanna mess up things.i really dont wanna make a mistake and let you get hurt by ur own decision and mine in addition :(

IM NOT YOU SERVANT BABY
CANT GRANT YOUR EVERY WISH!

me lovey likey crappy bull :D she from little miss giggle to she little miss now.hear me roar.

they said me says :)
to do list :
a) keep quite
b) write a blog
c) study
d) dinner
e) blank
we said me thought :)
a) sadness,put it aside
b) loneliness,put it aside
c) laughters,not tooo overjoyed
d) missing somebody,dont be too confident

things has been sad and empty lately.am feeling so down now -_-' dont really know why.am just feeling down lah.the skies had been one of the factors me feeling down too.haha the skies's looking so empty,dull,not bright looking at all.

today,my mood was swinging.was overslept and it does not feel good i can tell.i tend to be angry today.even to the prefect.daaaang they'r annoying -_-' never tego people soft2.DO YOU NEED TO EMBAK UR HORSEY FACE TO US?dang you people.

the dinner thing is running smoothly so far :) thank god.please be over soon.haha and im broke.i wanna buy a calculator man! -_-' hahaha broke broke broke broke omg mintak jauh mintak jauh :)

am missing someone :)) yesterday he called me yeay so suk-ing :DD talking to him WAS FUN! yeay i like lah.haha am falling for him thou agen said it was quite a disgusting matter me being in a relationship with him.haha but he's fun lah agen u know that.haha :DD

hope things will turn out great eventually amin

things has been hard as it is hard from the start.people do not think further and ahead.they do not put theirselves in a reality world.for me,i work for reality as i imagined myself working for a real company so i know how to cooperate and listen to others and think about their ideas.try to keep it real as i am a dreamer and a realistic.a dreamer to set up my aims a realistic to make it work.am serious in what am doing.when its time to joke i'll joke.i'll be the classclown to get everyone to laugh and smile.we cant always do it our own way.there's no *me* in adulthood later on.well there is in somethings but not in group work.we always need to listen to others.it's not that simple.we can just pop things and get it immediately.there will be a procedure of what ur getting.a simple example to show ; in need of a sweet.u wish it and it cant pop out infront of u just like that.we need a money and we need to pay for that sweet.understand?maybe its very hard to understand my situation at the moment.everything for me seems a lil toooo complicated.well i hope things turn out well eventually :)

inside my head * them,him :) ,dinner,exam,kl,shirts,yoyot,credit,looking for sponsores so and so*

well what about them?
case 1
a wiseman said : embak palak dikpun cuz friends nowadays banyak palat.at first i didnt get what he meant by that but now i see it.crystal clear thou :) trying to ignore those bull cuz i dont have time for those.all i noe is,we fight we laugh we cry together.maybe there was some misunderstanding but we solved it but now i just dont get it.nevermind i can handle it.i went through alot of other things and i know how and how life goes.not to say that i know everything but i think i went through things that i guess other normal girl teenagers never experienced it before.and i know how much it hurts if so and so happens.so now,am sitting here on my chair.listening to starstrucks and am thinking fast about *so and so* :) i hope they know what are they doing.am here just to guide them to protect them to love them and give them advices.

how about him?
case 2
i can tell,from the way my face blushes when im around him,i think i like him :) but yea i know he's that playing around type of guy so i dont think i wanna take it seriously.but i cant help it when it comes to acting silly when am thinking about him :)) well better not to put my hopes that high ha?any clue who?he has cute smiles and i like to see him in his miserable mode cuz i find him very cute that way :DD

dinner?
case 3
well the seniors asked us to organise an annual dinner for our photography club so we decided to make the dinner ASAP :) things are going coookkoooo abit but i guess it'll work.amin~it's going to be fun!i can tell.

EXAM EXAM!
case 4
ohmygod!our midterm exam is just around the corner.which is,on the august?which is,NEXT MONTH? -_-' i missed the whole chapter 5 in biology.and i still need to revise my principal account.and i LOST MY DEAREST CALCULATOR! -_-' can things get any worse? -_-' haha well am trying my best.PFFT RITE! im soo not trying my best lately i mean in academics.things are so unstable cuz i've been thinking alilbit toooo much of that dinner thing! -_-' HUSNA WAKE UP KNUCKLEHEAD! -_-' spm oi spm!tock tock.

KUALA LUMPUR
case 5
oh gila oh crazy!haha :DD am sooo excited cuz we'r going to kuala lumpur on august.at the same time i gotta skip my exam.my god -_-' my number will be puuuuuuuuuuuuffffhhhhhssshhhh down down.haha :)) its a family thing.hee.

fuh am tired of typing.other minor things just put it aside.haha :DDD later people.

ONE THING!

PHOTOGRAPHYS CLUB ANNUAL DINNER 2009 IS DRVING INSANE! :) but i love it.

sinking my butt on the chair expressing things thats on my mind at the moment.am thinking of the girls thou :) how much they've been delighting my days since 2009 started.we faught yes but hey,we'r not that perfect.we fight we faught we cry we laughs we shares we keep it to ourself we hates we loves.i appreciated them so much.i love them :) without them i can tell,im nothing.maybe just a rubbish.

dyg nurfarahain,jasna,maya,mel,afiifah,masha and neesa.and others too but those name that've been mentioned,we'r in the same class.so yea.they'r unique,stupid most of the times but dont get me wrong.stupid in a good way thou.thats why i love them sooo much :))

dyg nurfarahain : people calls her agen/aggy thou :)) its just her nickies.she's that type who listen to people.yea she is.she's a secretive person i can tell.she likes to keep it to herself when its her relationship matters.i mean not all the time,she shares too.hee she's always remind me of white things idk why :))

jasna : she's good in math really :)) she's strict too but if its come to doing stupid things.be her guest man :DD she's fun to be with.she must win most of the times.she's generous too thou :)) always buy us lunches or dinner.haha or eating matters.her parents are drop dead cool :DD i love her

maya : she's the naughty type -__-' always gives us headache thou.childish?yes much! :DDD and she has got her little double trouble romance.heee she's a hotstuffs yes i can tell.she's into squash.haha.she loves the colour yellow.and she's a fan of lemonade.haha.

mel : she's the antique type :DD a big fan of marilyn monroe thou.and michael jackson too.haha same here mel,gimme 10 :DD for me she's that party girl type.but hey she's fun :DD

afiifah : haha this person :DD how to even describe her.mmm lets just begin with.she's a very emotional person.she's very deep in her relationship thou.crazy type yes :DD we loves her lots.haha

masha : well,she's that goodie goodie girl type :DD we loves her

neesa : haha she's the blurs type.very fun to be with man! hahaha :DD she'll make u laugh eventually.hahah

she has returned! :DDD with a smile on her face.with a laughters aside :DD SHE'S HAPPY! :DD well ofcourse she's happy.things has changed for the better she perhaps?

chapter 1
well,i wanna tell you one MAJOR MAJOR IMPORTANT THING! :DDD I'M FALLING FOR SOMEONE!I LIKE THIS PERSON SO MUCH! :DD haha eeee i like him eh -__-' but not quite sure if he likes me back so yea.dont put ur hopes high husna -__-' oh please eh I LIKE YOU.haha.oh gosh im happy :) but im in need to shut up.SHUT UP HUSNA! -__-' hahaha well hey gelang kaki,i like you! haha.

chapter 2
it's a relief to see agen smile and laugh again.i mean honestly smiles and laughs.after a month of pretending having a relationship with someone she doesnt like is fine,i can tell u -__-' its not.she really not into my ex.the latest one that is.but! SHE IS FINE WITH SOMEONE WHOM IM CRUSHING RITE NOW! :DDDD yeay gelang kaki! :DDD thanks agen! i love u.haha im happy to see u acting normal again.i mean seriously in ur normal mode.i misses you thou in that past month ):

chapter 3
I LOVE HIM I LIKE HIM IM SCARED IF HE DOESNT LIKE ME BACK ): IM SCARED IF IM PUTTING MY HOPES HIGH FOR HIM,HE'LL CRUSH IT.BUT,I LIKE HIM I REALLY DO I LIKE HIM I LIKE HIM AM MISSING HIM AT THE MOMENT THOU ): BUT HEY GELANG KAKI.COME BACK! I MISS YOU :DDD