things has been hard as it is hard from the start.people do not think further and ahead.they do not put theirselves in a reality world.for me,i work for reality as i imagined myself working for a real company so i know how to cooperate and listen to others and think about their ideas.try to keep it real as i am a dreamer and a realistic.a dreamer to set up my aims a realistic to make it work.am serious in what am doing.when its time to joke i'll joke.i'll be the classclown to get everyone to laugh and smile.we cant always do it our own way.there's no *me* in adulthood later on.well there is in somethings but not in group work.we always need to listen to others.it's not that simple.we can just pop things and get it immediately.there will be a procedure of what ur getting.a simple example to show ; in need of a sweet.u wish it and it cant pop out infront of u just like that.we need a money and we need to pay for that sweet.understand?maybe its very hard to understand my situation at the moment.everything for me seems a lil toooo complicated.well i hope things turn out well eventually :)