i want to be,
free,
beautiful,
and to feel love,
it's the most magical thing that has ever existed since the first day human was created,
to feel love,streaming in my blood,breathe it in and out,
to spread love around like wind,
to be free,beautiful and to be love,
is amazing,
you feel like,u are capable to do almost everything
you feel like you owned the universe,
i want to be free and yet,isolated
it's just me,
i want to feel free,when i'm with the one that i love
to look into his eyes,and you can feel the sense of belonging,
to look into his eyes,and with his mouth shut,
you can hear his whisper,
saying that you're his,
that's beauty,
to feel his smile with your eyes shut,
his lips,
and you know you're free,and loved
he's your freedom
although people may say,you don't need a man,to make you feel beautiful,
but it's different for me,
i need his smile,his eyes and his touch,
to make me feel free,
to make me feel beautiful,
and i miss him,
and i wonder,if he ever remember me
as i remember him,
i want him to know that he's wonderful,legendary,amazing,beautiful
he's my freedom,my guardian
and he made me feel like an infant,
soft and delicate
him.
please let him know that

he's going away now

yeap it's true.he's leaving tomorrow.to kl first,then he'll head to thailand for his training (watersport kinda stuffs) and he'll leave me here.jeez really you?not setting any hopes for this guy cuz i know,no hope at all needed.haha i'm just enjoying whatever that we had/have.and if it's heading towards something,then i'll just go with the flow and if it isnt.then okay :)

i kinda just broke another guy's heart.great me! (kill me now) i'm pretty much am confused of myself.can't get me sometimes u know?when i think i'm ready,there you go my past will slap me right on my face.and therefore,i am pretty much confused.when i think i'm ready,i'm not.when i'm not ready,i think that i am.the fuck right?and i dont expect him(broken hearted guy) to understand cuz he had it easy.and i hope,we'll always be friends.

you're the one who i can't have

maybe i'm a sinner for wanting someone when i'm in a relationship with someone else,
but you came before him and i have never thought of forgetting about you,
i may have forgotten when was the last time i stop caring about you,
but you came back
and it's very hard to resist
because it's never over
it has never started either
i guess,
i just have feelings for you
feelings that myself can't understand
and i would love not to lose you
so i know you can see how obvious is my feelings towards you
but i'll let you to know yourself,
unsolved my heart puzzle
let you give me your own answer
i won't admit whatever shit that's in my heart and mind
i'll just let you play this game

sinner?

they convinced me that sex,is just sex
they convinced me that love,is only for the hollies
and that hate,is a trend
and that,beauty has its own measurement
and that measurement,is only restricted to them who are..
open your eyes,
your world isn't all rainbows and candies,
it has its own dark side,
but for those who chose not to peek the opposite side,the dark side
like me,
our life,
are still rainbows and butterflies,
and we chose to accept it that way,
that we still seek,the light in every soul on earth,
because we know,not all men were born with dark shadow behind him,
because we know,we've seen,
that smile,that pure smile,
all babies had made,
once.

havoc?!

God it has been awhile huh?it's 2011 now people.things has changed,a lot! i'm currently studying at taylor's university which is in kl.i've been taking mass communication,and i'm shifting to my sem 2 next year.yeah let's get started :

The School and anything that's related
i've been ditching my alvin leong academy since i've started my taylor's.well,actually i'm still on my academy sem break and suppose to continue my diploma next year but i'm not quite sure cuz i'm really busy with the real stuffs yknow?we'll see how it goes.i'm aiming for event management & public relation course after foundation and i'm really hoping that i can proceed to bristol for my final one year.

that's it?i've been missing the girls.hope to meet them soon thou :) and okay goodnight hehe

blogging again?!

haha it's been awhile ey?or a year?or two?haha :D glad to be back.without blogger my english sucks lollipop.anyway,too much updates so i can't really update anything.just informing that i'm back.but atleast i can update some general stuffs.okay here it goes.if you were reading my 2009's posts.i've been dumped by this one boy rite?well guess what?he's with me now :D it's been 2 years.we are couple since 2009.till now.well,there was this,pretty long break ups in between.but whattheheck,he's my baby now.thank god.and,the japan thinggy.so sad /: terrified too.all of my best wishes for them.and,i'd graduated from middle school last year in 2010.my result will be release soon on the 23rd march.2 weeks from now.can't wait.and,that's all?anddd,i'm still me.still with photography.been taking diploma in alvin leong academy.it's been a month now,will be done with it within june.so yeah,after that maybe taylors or limkokwing cyberjaya.but i'm hoping i'll get accepted in taylors ey.limkokwing is,something else.haha so yeah.that's all.goodnight! *happy face*

These words are my own
They're from my heart
I love you, I love you
That's all I got to say,
can't think of a better way
And that's all I got to say
I love you, is that okay?