i want to be,
free,
beautiful,
and to feel love,
it's the most magical thing that has ever existed since the first day human was created,
to feel love,streaming in my blood,breathe it in and out,
to spread love around like wind,
to be free,beautiful and to be love,
is amazing,
you feel like,u are capable to do almost everything
you feel like you owned the universe,
i want to be free and yet,isolated
it's just me,
i want to feel free,when i'm with the one that i love
to look into his eyes,and you can feel the sense of belonging,
to look into his eyes,and with his mouth shut,
you can hear his whisper,
saying that you're his,
that's beauty,
to feel his smile with your eyes shut,
his lips,
and you know you're free,and loved
he's your freedom
although people may say,you don't need a man,to make you feel beautiful,
but it's different for me,
i need his smile,his eyes and his touch,
to make me feel free,
to make me feel beautiful,
and i miss him,
and i wonder,if he ever remember me
as i remember him,
i want him to know that he's wonderful,legendary,amazing,beautiful
he's my freedom,my guardian
and he made me feel like an infant,
soft and delicate
him.
please let him know that

he's going away now

yeap it's true.he's leaving tomorrow.to kl first,then he'll head to thailand for his training (watersport kinda stuffs) and he'll leave me here.jeez really you?not setting any hopes for this guy cuz i know,no hope at all needed.haha i'm just enjoying whatever that we had/have.and if it's heading towards something,then i'll just go with the flow and if it isnt.then okay :)

i kinda just broke another guy's heart.great me! (kill me now) i'm pretty much am confused of myself.can't get me sometimes u know?when i think i'm ready,there you go my past will slap me right on my face.and therefore,i am pretty much confused.when i think i'm ready,i'm not.when i'm not ready,i think that i am.the fuck right?and i dont expect him(broken hearted guy) to understand cuz he had it easy.and i hope,we'll always be friends.

you're the one who i can't have

maybe i'm a sinner for wanting someone when i'm in a relationship with someone else,
but you came before him and i have never thought of forgetting about you,
i may have forgotten when was the last time i stop caring about you,
but you came back
and it's very hard to resist
because it's never over
it has never started either
i guess,
i just have feelings for you
feelings that myself can't understand
and i would love not to lose you
so i know you can see how obvious is my feelings towards you
but i'll let you to know yourself,
unsolved my heart puzzle
let you give me your own answer
i won't admit whatever shit that's in my heart and mind
i'll just let you play this game